i just need to rant a bit ……….
It’s going to be a new year in a few hours for me and I am so alone. My family have not called me to see if I am doing anything for new years eve nor have my so called friends.I don’t know what I have done to deserve to be so alone. In November 2010 I gave my heart to God, a year later I don’t know if he is even in my life anymore. I feel empty and numb and all I am doing is eating to kill the pain. I have been rejected so many times in 2011 that I have lost all my confidence.I have been single for 4 years and I an spending new years eve alone. As of this morning I weighed in at 90kg my heaviest to date. I really don’t know how to turn all this around ……..i am at the end of my rope.
I just want to have friends that are real and dont just put up with me. I want to be 60kg and have all the confidence in the world. I want to be fit and healthy. but most of all I WANT TO BE HAPPY.
